For years, I buried the shame of living a double life. The terrifying talent of a pathological liar is to be so absolutely sure that our lies are the truth, that we forget what the truth actually is. I was stuck in a dark web that included Hollywood, sex work, Instagram, plastic surgery, and psychiatric wards. Meanwhile, I was pretending to be happy, successful, and even influential. It. Was. A. Lie.
After many years of living lies—lies that I had masterfully convinced myself were the truth—the scariest part of writing this book was knowing I would have to tell the real truth, the whole way through. I had to face every fake and dishonest part of me, and shed the skin of my past—not knowing what would happen, and not knowing if, or how, I would heal.
Can I Be Honest? is my gift to myself and to you. Not just so I can come clean, but so that you, too, can excavate your shame, accept and even love the darkness of your past, and move forward with clarity and confidence. Today, I am a fiercely devoted woman—to truth, to love, to kindness, to full expression—and most importantly, to living freely and authentically in my body. It's not an easy path, but it's worth it—and my hope is that this book will free you, too.
