If I Am Not Me: Recovering Your Ego - Managing Bipolar Depression through Walking and Meditation
by Rabbi Jeffrey S. Turtletaub
If I Am Not Me is a deeply personal and practical guide to healing from bipolar depression - not by escaping the self, but by learning to walk with it.
Drawing on decades of Torah study, psychology, and lived experience, Rabbi Jeffrey S. Turtletaub offers a revolutionary approach to emotional recovery: movement as medicine, awareness as prayer, and walking as the most honest form of meditation.
This book is not about quick fixes. It is about slowing down enough to meet yourself where you truly are - in body, breath, and thought. With gentle honesty and profound spiritual clarity, Turtletaub explores how simple, mindful walking can become a form of cognitive therapy, how meditation can restore equilibrium, and how faith can be rediscovered through rhythm, not dogma.
Both memoir and manual, If I Am Not Me offers tools for those navigating depression, bipolar disorder, or the aftermath of trauma - and for anyone seeking to recover a stable, compassionate relationship with their own mind.
A book of movement and mercy, it reminds us that healing begins with a single step - and that every step, taken consciously, can lead us home.
