For the loved ones left behind by suicide, unanswered cause-and-effect questions are unleashed that inevitably lead to guilt. If I had done this... If I had not done that... If I had done more... If I had done nothing!
Suicide is almost universally motivated by an absence of hope. All too often, family and friends wonder when and how their actions and inactions may have contributed to their loved one's hopelessness. The guilt can be long-lasting and life-changing.
While I will always love my son and the wonderful memories I have of our time together, I also know I must find a way to continue to live my life according to God's purpose. The bridge to this future has been forgiveness. Not unlike Jesus' grace which he freely gives for our sins, this forgiveness must be given to ourselves and others whose lives fall under the shadow of suicide.
It is my hope and purpose that my story will help others find the bridge, give it to God where it clearly belongs, and accept the outcome.
